Out of order!!

Machines going out of order is acceptable. Toilets under maintenance, as well, is bearable.
The potentiality of eliminating of clogs, blocks and all kinds of chunks, be it from a human heart or a pipeline of any kind is feasible.
Ousting of substantial disorders is relatively attainable than impalpable.
But, what if, the impediment is nowhere but mentally.

YES! a mental block, struggling to survive through this post anticipating losing it all.

Never have I ever faced this before. Is it for never being a writer or tedious previous months? (I always wanted to use the ‘never have I ever’ phrase, I get to use it at last. YAYY!!)

Or, is my creativity being crushed by my angst and stress?
Or, is it the change I am going through in my life?
Instead of relaxing and relishing the mini-uninvited break, being all jittery is the only task I have accomplished with perfection.
Months have gone by, staying motivated initially meant smooth sailing through the silent sea oblivion of the intramural storm rising with each passing day.

The mental block is piling up, so, today, deciding to go against the flow and write all about it. Since 11:00 am, struggling and yet, here I am, at 5:00 pm still battling for words and focus.

Sharing experiences:
Recently, at a local centre, I happen to meet an individual who invested his savings from his job in setting up three shops in the marketplace.
Only to find them turn to ashes one morning from the night’s blaze. Around AED half a million trickling down to just AED 500 in the pocket.
However, Love and tragedy, both, as unpredictable as our future with no fixed time, place or scenario.
Overnight bankruptcy, lifelong savings down the drain, not to mention his breakup at the time, yet, the man is content and grateful as his employees or himself remained unharmed. Helping him filter the right kind of people worth sticking around while emphasizing the value of life over the love of objects.

Positivity floods through when we meet such experienced people elevating appreciation for our situation.
Nonetheless, it is all right to go through dejection and lowliness. However, to stay dejected and miserable is not alright.

This post is my attempt to get back to what I love doing, ‘blogging’.

Let us know in the comments below, have you suffered from a mental block ever or have risen stronger from your previous fall?? Would love to hear your story.

From dust to dust!!

A prevailing fact, humans are created from various elements found in dust, making the elements of the deceased un-foreign for the soil to accept and enfold. Hence, the famous quote, ‘from dust to dust’.

As each category has exceptions, the formation of humans is exempted from having an exception. Irrespective of colour, caste, culture, religion, status, lifestyle, etc. the unprejudiced soil invariably embraces the carcass.
The global population falls under ‘rags to riches’ bracket on the monetary axis. Yet, the life envelopes shut in the same soil, making it no different for the affluent or the destitute.

While the course of formation elements being the same as the dissolving elements for all, locating the loophole for racism, discrimination is beyond reach.

However, annihilation by mending the loopholes is practicable.
Contempo chaotic episodes of manslaughter merely for the skin colour is barbaric.

An abhorrent glance while spitting out a few spiteful phrases over morning tea shaking our heads in despair, has been our only action condemning repugnant executions.

Most of us lucky getting away from such racist situations, but, the few who land up there, hardly make it out of there safe and sound. Scarred emotionally or physically or in worst scenarios, enters walking, exits on stretchers.

How fair is it, to be treated unjustly only by the skin colour?
Is it just the skin colour or beyond that??
Verily, the skin tone has nothing to do with it. The victim of racism is at no fault, but, falls prey to the ludicrous behaviour of questionable individuals. Upbringing is extensively responsible for various approach towards different culture, caste and race.

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Beauty in diversity

Minute a soul leaves the comfort of the womb into the world, the ears are filled with remarks on the skin tone of the newborn. Whereas, a child irrespective of colour is a blessing in every sense. We are born with no discrimination sense.

Then the baby gets showered with white dolls and flawless toys. Hence, lighting a spark of ‘appearance is only that all matters.’ Here, the dolls could be of different colours and race while a few flawed toys can do help the child a great deal in accepting the impaired mates and gifted companions, inculcating a sense of inclusion and acceptance.

Our voice becomes their voice. The way we address others becomes their way of communication.

Further, idolizing actresses and actors who look good and made to appear flawless increases the want to be like them and adding to the negativeness against the concept of inclusion and acceptance.
Acknowledging and accepting the community as it is without any remorse will nullify the acts like bullying, ragging and other irking behavior.
take over the hatred for color and caste, only ending up extreme episodes of mutilation.

Let’s begin educating and practicing from our homes and within our means.
To end my post, I would like to highlight facts of racism never being a part of any religion. For example: In the Holy Quran, Allah says “…We created you from a single (pair) of a male and a female and made you into nations and tribes, that you may know each other. Verily the most honoured of you in the sight of God is he who is the most righteous of you.” (Qur’an, 49:13)
Here, stated clearly that no man is held higher or lower in position, but, is only honored based on his deeds.

Race, caste is the brainchild only of humans and we need to get rid of it.

Do comment below, your views on the subject.

A little give, A little take!!

The key mechanism of any relationship lies in ‘a little give, a little take’.

Parent-child bond, bonds through marriage or a professional tie, all are signified while accomplishing the potential only by two-way traffic, ‘A little give, A little take’. 

A time bomb named as ‘relationship’ comprising cogs, namely, ‘providing and receiving’ operate in absolute sync consuming essential components like love, loyalty, trust, respect, communication, etc as the lubricant to avoid friction. If at all, any imbalance in the two cogs occurs, the mishap generally is followed by the glitch in the time bomb emanating catastrophes.

21st-century bondings have no common grounds with the ties and bonds shared back in the olden days. Families, friends and acquaintances stuck together for ages, then. 

Presently, any family connection or social affiliation easily associated to a time bomb, reason being, lack in the balance of giving and taking. Either, it is excess giving & no taking or, excess taking & no giving, in any case, bringing the connection ties’ survival rate to nearly zero. 

The shift in priorities has led to poignant consequences, lately. Willingness to compromise bearing in mind the well-being of the bond or the greater good coming with it has been engulfed in the love of mere commodity and rank.

An integral part of a bond is to compromise. 

However, to compromise is traditionally mistaken for acquiescing consumption of ourselves. Or, when the committed party is overly consumed ensued by his dedication, loyalty, love and priority.

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A little give, a little take

To compromise:

To gain benefits, giving up on a few is enforced. It is nearly impossible to have all that is desired by one. Which raises the question of, what to compromise on and for what to strive? 

Individual choices, mindsets, desires, tradition, qualification, upbringing and circumstances execute the decision of what to compromise.

Overlooking education for a blissful happily ever after is preferable for some, while sweeping the idea of marriage under the carpet for a successful career might be more convenient for some. Quitting a job for taking care of the households may be the idea of compromising for many, while compelled signup as a breadwinner of the house become the compromise for some. 

The complication has never been ‘the compromise’, but, what is being compromised and how much is being compromised. 

The exploitation of a compromising person excels in assorted setbacks. 

The mishap may be distinct, right from mental breakdowns to breakups, from disloyalty to deception, from animosity to resentment, and many more such ill-consequences. 

What not to compromise:

As we all are compelled to make a compromise, what to compromise on is always in our control. Like things which should never be compromised are your ideas, goals, faith and belief, values, self-respect, dignity, happiness, individuality, integrity and self-worth along with any other facet of life you cannot imagine giving upon. For example: For me, it is my son. Compromising on being with him to get into new ties, is an inconceivable notion for me. 

So, before compromising, be sure of not compromising on the checklist provided above along with the aspect most dear and close to you and your heart.

How much to compromise:

While compromising, be upfront in drawing a line on how much is more and beyond the limit. No matter whoever we are with, the more we let ourselves be consumed, the more we get consumed, there is no upper limit set unless we set it ourselves. 

Serve on middle grounds until you’re at the receiving end as well. If only you’re the one providing, there might be an unpleasant finish. 

For whom to compromise:

  • Who feels just right. Trust your instincts.
  • Who knows your capability and capacity to give and wouldn’t ask for beyond.
  • The one equally providing and bringing his input into the ties, making the bonds stronger. 
  • Who acknowledges your effort and recognises your intentions even if the result turns out as unexpected. 
  • The one who wouldn’t exploit your resources of varied nature in any manner. 
  • Your parents without any conditions. The fact, they bring you into this world equate all your compromises.

For whom to not-compromise:

  • The one who never acknowledges your greatest efforts.
  • For the one, who never have it enough.
  • The ones who step into the bond empty-handed.
  • The one gauges your emotions, feelings through your compromise and degree of submission. 
  • For the one who would perpetually demand more.
  • The one who will stipulate the flow of the relationship based on your compromises and efforts.
  • Anyone who deliberately demands a compromise on your reverence and value. 

Lastly, after a certain point, there should be no scope of regret left. Compromise enough for the ones worth it while keeping your values, dignity and all the above intact, hence, keeping no room for remorse.

Is there anything you would want to add on any of the areas covered in the post? Do let us know in the comments below.

Whats your personality?

Personality is the glitter that sends your little gleam across the footlights and the orchestra pit into that big black space where the audience is. – Mae West


I recently came across a personality test. (it’s new for me, at least)

An interesting way to have a deeper understanding of your character behavior and your perspective towards life.

Your strengths / weaknesses, approach towards your love life, What kind of a parent you will make or you are already, how do you tend to perform career wise, and many more such details about your personality are revealed upon spending approx 10 – 12 mins on this test and answering a set of questions about your instincts and habitual behavior.

I propose everyone to take a shot at this test, as it helps you get better at reflective practices and develop the needed aspects of yourself while being able to cherish the attributes which might have seemed to be trivial.

As being in the administration and HR, I would now be making it necessary for the candidates to turn in the results of this test as an added info about the interviewee.

As my test result, I scored an “Advocate Personality” type.

To know more about the advocate personality, click here.

Here is the link to the test, feel free to take the test and share the answers if you feel appropriate.

https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test

While taking the test, please be super honest,as this will be a reflective exercise and help you know yourself better.

Do let us know in the comments below if you have taken the test already and what do you feel about it or share your answers to the test with us.

Service to humanity!

All over the world regardless of the ongoing season or the weather conditions, our desires, our wants and needs pay no heed. Rising with passing time, quenching the craves becomes a task. Feasible at a click of the button for some, while, regulating for the vital supply itself gets crippling for some.

The ratio of the crippling is way more than the haves. 

Instances of both classes are spotted in our vicinity. At times, the contrast is distinct, but, many times to differentiate the indigent is confusing. 

Shielded amour-propre refrains the impoverished from imploring, while expectations soaring their speculation of acquiring aid.

While the secret desire of the deprived remains cloaked, the glare of the leisure blocks the effluent from spotting the needful.

On the contrary, the benevolent irrespective of their financial holding selflessly reach out to the needy with available means, winning the ‘philanthropist’ title. 

Helping comes with the pleasure of its own, the realization of the wonders every good deed can do. 

Various channels of approaching the unfortunate are accessible. Charitable organizations or charitable events, they all aim to provide for the needy and deal with poverty one man at a time. 

However, we don’t need to bank on such events or organizations entirely for helping the deprived. 

Apart from dropping a dime in the charity box at the mall, or spending on a charity coupon, ways like feeding the poor, giving old clothes, distributing blankets or other essentials, setting up a water cooler in the neighborhood add to the list of admired charitable ways. 

At times, the deserving may be contiguous to us in relation or distance. Mindfulness to their needs is what it requires to make the first step forward to provide support.

Upon giving alms, the giver is not helping the needy, but, instead is helping himself to become a better person, to be more empathetic, and helps himself to be more generous while expecting null in return. However, the sanctification of giving charity and the elation of easing the misery of a soul is indescribable. Yet, some boastful individuals brag about their blessed cause and let the value of the deed go in vain.

Negligent of the scar left on the hearts of the receiver by their hurtful act.

The mortified receiver strained by the circumspect acceptance of funds, already burdened by the affliction and compromising their dignity, generally, expect the giver to be attentive of their emotions.

All form of charity is a component of many religions and culture. Hence, being taught and inculcated in the young minds from an early age, building a sense of service to humanity.

Similarly, in Islam, charity throughout the year is instigated while in the holy month of Ramadan, charity by the name of Zakat has been made obligatory. Zakat, the third out of five pillars of Islam, is a term used for the 2.5% of the wealth, investment or savings to be paid to the poor and needy. (to know more about the Zakat and its terms and rulings, click here). Economists have confirmed the fact that if each believer makes the due payment of zakat and does not withhold it, poverty will surely be eradicated from the face of the Earth. Sadly, that is not the case yet. 

There are various types of people in need depending on their situation, hence, broadening our opportunities for charity. 

Generosity could be in the form of giving wealth, clothing, essentials, groceries and many other desired objects which eases the gainers’ situation to some extent. 

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However, it does not remain restricted to the same. If you possess knowledge of any kind, sharing it is charity. Helping any seeker in any manner without expecting any returns while not boasting is also a form of charity. To smile at someone is charity. Clearing the pathway of any obstacle to ease the passage for others is charity. Charity is also when you help a blind man cross the road. Showing directions to the lost is as well a form of charity. Helping out animals is also charity. planting trees as well is charity and the list goes on.

So, for reaching out and helping, you need not be rich or have a huge bank balance. Without these also you can be charitable and earn the rewards and be blessed. 

Abu Dharr narrated that the Messenger of Allah said :

“Your smiling in the face of your brother is a charity, commanding good and forbidding evil is a charity, your giving directions to a man lost in the land is a charity for you. Your seeing for a man with bad sight is a charity for you, your removal of a rock, a thorn or a bone from the road is a charity for you. Your pouring what remains from your bucket into the bucket of your brother is a charity for you.” Reference: Jami` at-Tirmidhi 1956, In-book reference: Book 27, Hadith 62, English translation: Vol. 4, Book 1, Hadith 1956

No good deed is small. A deed which may be minuscule for us might make an enormous difference in the life of the beneficiary. So, never belittle any act of help and seize every opportunity which comes your way, doing your part in making a life lead to a better future.

What are your thoughts on charity, and is there anything you would want to add to our post, let us know in the comments below? 

Like and share & continue to spread the sparkle.

Banana-Choco Shake

Bananas when combined with milk is loaded with amazing nutrients, minerals, fiber and basic sugar. As bananas are a rich wellspring of nutrient B6, folate, nutrient C, magnesium, potassium and sugars. A glass of banana shake is sufficient to keep the stomach full for quite a while. Moreover, it comes with additional beauty enhancing benefits for our skin and hair.

We add chocolate to our banana shake as it makes it more delightful and is a treat for our taste buds.

So, today glittercut.com brings to you a very tempting, yet an easy recipe for Banana Shake.

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Banana shake

Ingredients (Serves 1)

Bananas 1

Milk 1/2 glass

Vanilla ice cream 3 scoops

Ice cubes 3 cubes

Vanilla extract 1/2 tsp

Rose water 1 tsp (optional)

Date honey / Honey 1 Tbsp (optional)

For garnishing (any one of these would do)

Dry fruits (chopped)

Chocolate syrup / chocolate sauce

Chocolate (of your choice)

Equipment

Blender

Method

To the blender, add milk, banana, ice cream, ice cubes, vanilla extract, rose water and date honey, and blend it all until the banana and all other ingredients form a tempting smooth drink.

For garnishing

In the empty serving glass / jar / mug, drizzle the chocolate sauce to the sides of the jar from inside and then pour the drink in it. Top it off with dry fruits, and finish the look by fixing a chocolate bar / piece into the shake sticking out a shown in the image above.

Is this the way you have your banana shake? let us know in the comments below.

Exhilarating Watermelon Juice

Today, for our Ramadan Special segment on glittercut.com, brings to you yet another easy-peasy recipe.

Watermelon juice, is a drink which is cooling, light and delicious.

As we know watermelon possesses unique coolant qualities, hence, it does wonders in keeping the body temperatures cool during the summers and fasting during Ramadan. It also hydrates and add to the water intake of your body.

So, here we go…

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Ingredients (Serves 1)

Watermelon cut into cubes 1 glass

Ice cubes 4 cubes

Lemon juice 2 Tbsp

Sugar 2 Tbsp

Vanilla Extract 1 Tsp

Rose water (optional) 1 Tsp

Salt 1/4 tsp (a pinch)

Equipment

Blender (my blender was out of order, hence I had used the handheld electric whisk, it turned equally well.)

Method

Add all the ingredients to the blender, and GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR… (blend it, till all blends really well) 😀

You are good to go.

Serve in a glass, for garnishing add mint leaves.

Tips:

For sugar, make sure you add according to the sweetness of the watermelon. I did not take out time to deseed my watermelon, and trust it was completely fine and worked out just okay.

For desserts, vanilla extract is my favorite ingredient, I love its aroma, and it also enhances the flavors of the other ingredients while chemically adding more flavor of itself.

So, here is a small list of all-time-must-haves at home if you proudly possess a sweet tooth.

Sugar

Vanilla extract

Chocolate syrup / chocolate sauce

All purpose flour

Milk

With the above ingredients you can work wonders to treat yourself with a desired dessert at any time of the day. Obviously, if going into the nitty-gritty details, the list goes long, but, the list above is keeping in mind the basic stuff required and remember… we are here only for easy-peasy hassle free recipes… YAAYY!!

Do let us know how you liked the recipe and did you try out our cold coffee, if yes, do let us know?

Cold, cold, cold, cold Coffeeee!!

As we all know, we are in the month of Ramadan being observed by the Muslims all over the world.

Apart from the spiritual essence and soul awakening purpose, Ramadan is also famous for its festivity and feasts offered in during the month.

So, this month I have come up with a dedicated segment for the easiest recipes for snacks, iftars, get-togethers or late night snacking.

Fondness for cooking is what I have not assimilated yet, however, I can cook well when I am asked to cook. (It runs in my genes) 😛

Today, in the Ramadan special segment, I would start with my favorite drink. Cold Coffee.

It is easy-peasy and a no-fail recipe for sure.

Cold coffee (servings 1)

(for more servings, do the additions and the math to get the sufficient drink)

cold coffee

Ingredients

Coffee powder (1 Tbsp)

Sugar (1 Tbsp)

Vanilla extract (1/2 tsp)

Ice cubes (3 cubes) (adding this to the blender, makes the drink frothier)

Milk (1/2 glass)

Date honey (1 1/2 Tbsp) / Regular honey can also be used

Chocolate ice cream (4 small scoops)

Garnishing ingredients

(any of these can do)

Whipped Cream (optional) Recipe for homemade whipped cream is mentioned at the end of the post.

Grated Chocolate (optional)

Chocolate Sauce (optional)

Equipments

Blender

Glass / jar / mug (for the beverage to be served in)

Method

In the blender, add coffee powder, sugar, vanilla extract, ice cubes, milk, Date honey, 3 scoops chocolate ice cream and blend till all the ingredients mix well and form a liquid drink.

For serving.

First, take the empty glass in which the drink will be served. Drizzle the chocolate sauce on its sides. Once the side of the glass has been decorated, pour the drink to the glass. Add the remaining scoop of chocolate ice cream and top it up with whipped cream. Trickle a little more chocolate sauce or you can grate the chocolate bar at the top to finish the exotic look of your very tempting cold coffee.

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Homemade whipped cream.

Ingredients

Heavy plain cream (250 ml) (cold)

Sugar (3-4 Tbsp)

Vanilla extract (1 tsp)

Equipments

whisk / handheld electric whisk

Method

Add cold plain cream to a deep bowl along with sugar and whisk it with your available equipment.

Please whisk till it reaches the stiffness as per your desire.

It is time consuming, so make sure you prepare your whip cream way earlier than the drink.

Whip cream then can be stored in an air -tight container for up to 3-4 days.

Do let us know, how you liked the recipe and would you try it out.

Emotional Sedation!!

Admiration, adoration, appreciation of beauty, amusement, anger, anxiety, awe, awkwardness, boredom, calmness, confusion, craving, disgust, emphatic pain, entrancement, excitement, fear, horror, interest, joy, nostalgia, relief, etc are all various categories of emotions. 

A typical person would experience many of the above emotions in different instances. 

An individual who encounters various emotions and gracefully handles it is taken to be mentally stable along with being aware of himself and his actions. 

The correlation of emotions with feelings is that of height and weight. 

Every emotion has a specific feel along with it. 

Every emotion is a blessing, be it of any kind. 

However, today, I would like to dedicate my post to emotional sedation. Sedative effect on our mental awareness of emotions. 

A traumatic childhood, an unexpected negatively charged extreme event which we were never prepared to face at the given time. It’s a hard blow on our psychological and emotional capacity of dealing with situations. Thus, leading to tinnitus, further resulting in lingering emotional numbness.

Emotional numbness, surprisingly, apart from the above-stated cause, can also be cultural and societal. In many cultures, the emotional state is not given due attention and hence, crying is related to weakness, while anger is looked up for strength. These societies pushing the mental health under the carpet, emphasizes its people on being stoic, rational and emotionally invulnerable. 

Having oneself in these various situations, the preferred road is simple, not to feel any emotions at all. 

The instance can be no better than that of a rape victim. The atrocious episode leaves the victim with a string of loud tinnitus and moving on to emotional numbness. the heinous event concludes in a void of emotions. Unable to feel, express or communicate becomes new configuration in the system of the sufferer. Similarly, severe loss, stress, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), physical and mental abuse, are also few of many causes for sedation of emotions.

When speaking of mental health, emotional numbness is still a secret disease calling out for more attention. large numbers are oblivious of their malady, while others are in denial, as being stoic, stable and emotionally aware are always valued and held in high prestige. 

The crisis awareness of emotional numbness is eminent. Somebody in sentimental anaesthesia is no longer aware of any feeling, emotions or sentiments. Be it of his own or anyone involved, hence, dysfunctional coping mechanisms, depression, spiritual emptiness, inability to enjoy life, inability to form close and fulfilling relationships, disconnection from the inner self, confusion, irritability, fatigue, addictions, chronic illnesses, and somatic illnesses, inconsideration, insensitiveness, etc follows.

Being mindful of ourselves and ones around us is the key to reach out. 

Mentioned below are a few analytical ways in which one can be pinpointed.

  • Failure to express strong negative or positive emotions
  • Inability to “fully participate” in life (i.e. feeling like you’re a passive observer)
  • ‘Life is like a dream’ sense. (a feeling of unreality)
  • Living on autopilot.
  • Absence of interest in schemes, others find fun.
  • Feeling aloof from others.
  • An impulse to revoke from friends and family members.
  • Emotions are only felt in the body as sensations, but not by the mind
  • Animosity for people who show vivid emotions (both positive and negative)
  • Feeling numb in situations which should typically engender strong emotion
  • Panic attack when intense emotions eventually breakthrough.
  • Emptiness within.
  • Physical and mental insentience or blandness.

The extreme numbness may even influence the patient for suicidal attempts too.

Once we know the causes. Identify the silent bearers to recommend the ways to cure the silent disease.

As, the sentimental sedation is not permanent and so, the cure is available for both, long and short term. 

  • Identify the underlying reason for the numbness. 
  • See a psychiatrist. It is completely alright to visit a mental-health doctor. The old fashioned taboo of having a mental health issue is no more a dispute (at least in many countries and cultures). 
  • Talk to people who you feel closest to. People who make you feel connected, communicate and help yourself attain relief.
  • Exercise daily. Yoga, boxing, kick-boxing are great stress busters. However, a casual walk around the neighborhood also does wonders.  
  • Get ample sleep. Lack of sleep adds to the irritation and fatigue, hence, worsening the situation.
  • A well-balanced healthy diet is a must. It helps regulates and improves your mood.
  • Stress management. Minimize the stress and engage in stress-busting activities like meditation, prayers. Identify the stress enhancing factors and try to deal with them positively while getting rid of them eventually.
  • Determine emotions and articulate emotions. if you find this the hardest. do not delay in seeing a psychiatrist, let him tap your emotions for you and you can take it forward from there. 🙂

To the ones who are suffering from emotional numbness, you are not the only one. There are a lot more fighting the secret fight daily and maybe in the worst of situations. This sickness is momentary if crucial care is provided at once.

Have your say on emotional numbness in the comments below.

Had we confessed!! – (Guest Post)

Dear roll no 638

Subject: Had we confessed!

10th October 1991, Thursday when Roll No 638 bewitched me just to change the course of my perspective, priorities and preferences. Ever since then I began to live in a world of fantasy wherein    everything revolved around him. Days definitely commenced with my routine customary prayers, but now they changed too.  Imploring God to have a glimpse of Roll No 638 became its objective. Sleepless nights were spent weaving dreams of us together while days were spent supplicating that he does not play truant. But with each passing day, his reckless play-truant attitude gradually grew stronger, making my prayers more intense and his appearance less likely.  

Twenty Eight long years, yet our first encounter is etched deep in my memory, every detail distinctively fresh and crisp. It was our college excursion where we had first met; with every eye contact no dialogues were exchanged yet our eyes spoke volumes making the day worth memorable. Distinctly reminiscing when he first appeared before me, with all his opulent personality, dressed in the most casual grey stonewashed jeans and white printed shirt, his chiselled jaw lifted with a sweet, pleasing smile accentuating his devil’s tooth, his eyes twinkling with impishness, his dark black hair neatly done behind and his voice though exuding pride yet was soothing and genial. He had an unusual lethal combination of sturdy, muscular physique and an incredible sense of humour (a combination almost extinct in men then).  He was the Greek God per se, a bearer of a charming, smart and attractive demeanour. A complete package any girl would fall for. He had successfully cast his spell upon me that day.

He became the reason to regularly attend college. My eyes would scan the classroom only to rest on him and vice versa. His look would pulverize me, blushingly I would rip my eyes away from his. Less attention was on the lessons but more on his hilarious comments and mischief. He was roll no 638 and I was roll no 645, we occupied adjacent benches during exams. Being a regular student, my notes would always make rounds in the class. However, my adonis made use of them only during exams for cheating purposes. Thus my only motive to study for exams was to share my answer sheet with him in order to ensure that we remain class fellows.

Since we were pursuing science, laboratory sessions were an essential part of the course. He would be irregular for lectures but fortunately regular for lab sessions. I would always look forward for these sessions as we were to arrange ourselves as per our roll numbers. We shared the same lab counter for experiments. We had many instances where we bumped into each other, grabbed the same test tube or the same chemical but ironically spoke nothing just smiled and drew ourselves in different directions. With him around I was oblivious to the world around me. We would enjoy every silent and speechless conversation between us.

Probably, coming from a conservative family social barriers, fears and pressures prohibited us from being extrovert. Subsequently, deterring us to speak to each other too, but however, we shared an amazing oculesics communication.

Today, I sit back and traverse down the memory lane just to understand that life goes on. No one is indispensable and so is he. My life has moved on unfortunately without him but with beautiful memories of his charismatic smile, his humour filled one-liners and his devil-may-care attitude. Optimistically I believe his life too must have moved on successfully with someone worthy.

But, today while ruminating the past, I regret not speaking to him at least once! How I regret he could have taken the initiative to speak to me at least once (being the man)! How I wish we could express our feelings for each other in words! Why didn’t I ever muster up my courage and confess? Why didn’t he ever articulate his feelings into words?

 I am positive, wherever he is, he might be still remembering me. As I still remember him. His well-being is always included in my prayers till date but crossing paths now after 28 years is always excluded.

Stay blessed wherever and whoever you are with …

Regretfully

SH

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